if you want my future! forget my past! if you wanna get with me-better make it fast! now don’t go wastin’! my precious time! get your act together we could be just fine
Also, only until yesterday did I realize that it’s actually kind of interesting getting to know a person thru his/her tumblr acc. New age sub community teens are fascinating.
2013 was a good one. Such there were turmoils aplenty but the ONE best thing that happened was when D n I hit a SUPER rough patch.
Cos that’s when I realized who I was & began to love myself. That is also when I realized that D was even more of a clueless idiot than I had initially perceived.
Internal readjustments were processed, external dealings went through- albeit excessively & aggressively emotional. One thing for sure is that if both of us didn’t value the other enough, we would not have adjusted within the difficult conditions we both painstakingly & “tears-stormingly” laid out for each other.
I found myself. I was (& still am) happy that I was able to ease out of being without D. In fact maybe a bit too easily. Because, really, or should I say “raelly”, who’d want something a pubescent empty vessel wants? And who’d want something that wanted an empty vessel?
I feel quite sad though, that D had to put a youngling through all that just to understand himself.
That said, I’m happy that whatever happened, happened because we’re happier and clearer (not there yet but baby steps) about what comes next.
I *hated* his mistake but I also love all the things he’s doing for himself & us now- which means that I like the mistake he’s made. Without it, we’d not be the pair we are today & I’d never be a more emotionally mature person. So, in kind of a mean way, I truly appreciate that bump on the road for making my 2013 such a meaningful one!
An accidental visit exposed me to some nasty material though. Hope she gets better. Cuz we really don’t hate the girl.. :\ We’re sorry that we had to be one of those couples that needed to hurt someone to ski through a rough patch.
Also- I met so many amazing people and experienced so many rad things. I love all my friends and am so grateful to have them! SO MUCH LOVE FOR THE WORLD & MY BEAUTIFUL CAT!!